I had a student snap her arm literally in half today and I was helpless to do anything about it. I can only imagine what soldiers go through seeing things like I saw today but 10 gazillion times worse. You definitely have to be cut from a certain kind of cloth to work with kids especially when you have days like today. They are way few and far between and I am thankful for that.
It was a very surreal day. I am reminded how quickly things can change and how in control of things I really am not. I was hardly ready to tromp kids around a water park after that and really felt like it was a bad idea, but my boss (principal) said and was right, "the show must go on."
So, I have been in a very interesting mood to say the least. I barely saw my family today, not sure that they would want to be around me and I was not really in the mood to be around them. Nothing personal, I just needed to deal and defrag.
So, after a very unproductive band practice, I am not sure where I am at. I know this much, I almost broke my 9 year sobriety from alcohol. It's not an AA thing, I just chose years ago to give up drinking beer and hard liquor. I have wine from time to time, but that almost changed. Medicating does not work (unless of course it's Rocky Road Ice Cream). So, I will go to bed in a bit all the while trying to figure out what I could possibly make of today's events.
Rocky Road, that's actually a great idea! Talk with you soon.
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